Blah is the emotion of the day

I really hate when the day drags. Where it just feels like every minute is ten minutes passing by. It’s not that I’m not busy, it’s just I feel so tired and…yeah, tired. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. 

Some days I feel so alive, bright, and happy. Other days I feel so blah, dismal, and frustrated with the world. People driving piss me off, people around me piss me off, hell, even I piss myself off. It’s just today is one of those days that I’m just over it. Like Bye Felicia I’m done with you. 

Lately I’ve just been feeling so lost especially in regards to my health and fitness goals. Just sort of working out and tracking my food but not really enjoying it, you know what I mean? I feel discourage and unorganized and that’s two things that I hate feeling. Being unorganized and discouraged means I don’t have control. But having control 24/7 isn’t healthy and that’s a thing I’ve been working on, not having control. 

I know I just need to let go and take a deep breath. That things will work out when they are meant to work out but, I’m seriously ready for today to be over. At least I get to see my man and get ice cream, ice cream makes everything better, am I right? 

Positive minds achieve positive results

Alright alright, how many of us make plans to lose weight, get a six pack, or eat healthier, but to only find us a week later skipping the gym and shoveling a tub of ice cream down our throats, we’ve all been there. Look at me for instance, in 2012 I lost a good amount of weight and got down to my smallest size ever only to gain all of my lost weight back and then some only a year and a half later. Granted, the first time I lost weight it was very unhealthy, restrictive, and I was dealing with my eating disorder but it is still disappointing to achieve weight loss then gain it all back and then some. Many of you have followed me since day one and you have seen my constant battle with losing weight but I’m doing it differently this time. I am actually enjoying the process. I wake up ready to get my workout in and eat my good food that I have prepared to mow down on. Yes, I have been indulging a more than I probably should be lately but I’m finding my way by creating a balance that is allowing me to see the progress I want through cardio and weight lifting, while also enjoying drinks with friends and queso dip at the local Mexican restaurant. I’m telling myself that come summer time I won’t be ashamed or uncomfortable in shorts and a bathing suit like I was this past summer. I’m telling myself that I am going to be strong, fit, and healthy, because being negative when trying to better your health mentally and physically, you are just setting yourself up for failure.

I’m sick of ruining my progress and mindset by being negative. NEWS FLASH PEOPLE! Negativity never got anyone anywhere and I have finally figured that out. I’ve become a much more positive person and many people in my life know that to be true. We all know I have my moments and doubts and have my own demons to deal with but I’m doing the best with what I’ve got. I have no intentions of stopping my weight loss journey, nor do I have any intentions of not enjoying life. This weekend I am going out with friends and most likely I will drink too much but I will be laughing and living because that is what were supposed to do, live. I am making sure that this week however, is filled with good workouts and good food so I can in fact enjoy myself and not ruin the progress I am making. BALANCE. That is the key word in the equation when it comes to living a healthy life or if you are trying to lose weight. You won’t change over night and restricting your diet and working out for hours is only going to run you and your progress right into the ground. Being motivated is great, but being smart about the process is even more vital. I’ve been down the road where you restrict and restrict and you are miserable. You avoid going out because you don’t want to be put in a situation where you might have to eat badly or be faced with temptation, I get it, believe me. But rather looking as these situations negatively, see them as an opportunity to continue to choose healthy choices. Just because you are going out with friends doesn’t mean you have to eat pizza too. Or rather, eat a slice of pizza and enjoy it you just don’t need to eat the whole thing. I get frustrated when I see young girls or even girls my age trying to lose weight and they label all food as bad. NO FOOD IS BAD. That is right, pizza isn’t bad for you, cookies aren’t bad for you, they should be consumed in moderation yes, but they shouldn’t be labeled “bad”. We have formed this misconception that sugary and salty foods are going to ruin our diets and make us fat and yes, in some ways if they are consumed in large and frequent amounts they can cause those things. But, if you eat a balanced diet and you incorporate foods such as those you get to still enjoy the foods you love while also creating better eating habits. Moderation has been a hard idea for me to understand and live by and there are some days where
I’ll eat a whole tub of gluten free cookie dough but instead of beating myself up about it I just go extra hard at the gym or eat a better dinner. I’m sick of making myself feel bad when I enjoy good things in life, especially food.

I want you to join this journey with me on living a more healthy and positive life because it is important to remain focused and light hearted. Like I’ve said in my past I don’t know, three blog posts, 2015 is going to be my year, but it’s also going to be YOURS!

Jess goes gluten free: day 2

Merry Christmas Eve readers!

Today is day two of me being without gluten in my diet. I went back to the grocery store and picked up a few more things like fruits and veggies along with some gluten free snacks. I’ve been feeling pretty good so far I guess, I know that it takes at least a month for gluten to leave your body. I can’t get over how expensive gluten free crap is. I was looking at pizzas because pizza is my favorite food ever and they were literally $8-$12, like damn, I’m not going to pay THAT for a damn pizza. I think what I’m going to do when I have a free chunk of time I’m going to make a gluten free cookbook of simple and healthy recipes I can do that are tasty and obviously beneficial to my health.

Tonight I will be going to my grandmother’s house and I’m a little nervous about the food and whether or not I’ll be able to eat anything but I’m sure I can make something work. I’ve been eating throughout the day so if there isn’t a whole lot I can eat at least I won’t be starving. I made these AWESOME gluten free french fries with garlic powder and a bit of salt and dang, those were so delicious even more so than McDonalds and I love me some Mickey-Ds. I also went out to breakfast with my friend Jesenia and asked the waitress if their hash and home fries were gluten free and they were, score! I’m hopeful that I’m not going to become discouraged and go back to eating gluten. If making this change truly helps me I would be a fool not to at least give it a try for awhile to know for sure.

I’m really excitied to see where this goes and if it really helps witth my mental and physical health. I see bright things for 2015, I see a healthy and happy life filled with positivity.