Yesterday was my first full day of I tutive eating and not counting a single calorie. It felt so freeing to listen to my body, make healthy choices, and wake up not bloated and all swollen from an overeating night episode resulting from feeling restricted.
My whole life I feel like I’ve never truly accepted and loved myself. The last year I’ve worked diligently on self healing and reflecting through yoga, meditation, and writing. I believe that finally I am at peace. I hit that rock bottom, that lowest low that makes you feel even lower than that. I used that dark place to crawl slowly back into the light of self acceptance and love. I woke up this morning and was looking at myself in the mirror in my bra and underwear and thought, “wow, I am so perfectly imperfect” that is the first time in my whole life that I genuinely loved who I am.
I really feel that this is a new chapter in my book of life. I feel that this chapter is the first day of the rest of my life to finally not be held back by calories, food, and body shaming.
On another note, two years ago I was a vegetarian for six months after watching Vegucated on Netflix. I don’t know what came over me to start eating meat again but I had totally forgot what I had learned and saw when watching that documentary. The animal cruelty, the fact that meat is not beneficial to the environment, and that it’s not great for the human body. Mind you, this is my opinion if you want to eat meat, please do!! This is your life and your body do what you want with it. For me however, I watched Food Inc. on Netflix recently and was mortified, I was sitting in my bed crying and asking myself, “why did I go back to eating meat? Why did I go against my beliefs?” Honestly, I don’t even like meat that much. Besides a good steak I will admit that but is a good steak worth the harm and abuse these animals endure? Or the fact that most of the time they bathe in their own feces? I just don’t think I can support that whatsoever.
So, today is Day One of returning to my vegetarian lifestyle. One day maybe, I will go full vegan but that will take time and adjustment. Going cold turkey from one extreme to the other is basically setting yourself up for failure in my opinion. Also, when doing some research I even found out that a vegetarian diet can be beneficial to those with Celiac Disease so that’s a win win for me! I look forward to seeing how my body reacts and changes.
The world is a beautiful place filled with so many beautiful creatures. I’m ready to embrace the goodness in this crazy life of ours.