I haven’t been myself the past week or so. I’ve been so run down, tired, and agitated. I strongly believe that I suffer from PMDD, because whenever Mother Nature decides to bless me with this week of sorrow and depression, I just feel like I’m in a rut of confusion and unhappiness all day and night. Sometimes during this time I will have bursts of energy and happiness, but then there are moments when I’m so down and out I just feel so lost and helpless. I’m trying to stay active to clear my mind and read inspiring quotes to remind me of my purpose every day. I am nowhere near the place I was when I was eighteen years old, but I just feel really low, and that sucks.
It is tough to find balance in your life. That is something I struggle with all the time, trying to find the middle between working full time, having a boyfriend, seeing friends, and time to myself. There are days like today that I just miss my boyfriend and friends. I wish I had more time to do things such as hanging with my loved ones or myself for that matter but life doesn’t work that way. This world is ruled by money and although I love my job and coworkers, sometimes I just feel rundown, but that is something most adults feel. I wouldn’t consider to be a full adult just yet, I don’t think I ever will to be honest and that is another aspect I’m trying to balance and figure out.
I feel like my brain is scrambled and I just can’t figure myself out right now but I am hopeful that maybe soon I can just calm my brain and breakdown what is giving me this anxiety.