Have you ever met someone who just understands you completely? I have.
He is a pretty incredible human being, with all of my anxieties and unstable mind he accepts me, loves me, and just simply gets me and that is a beautiful thing. I feel like I’ve waited my whole life to find someone like this, whether they were to be a lover or friend, I just wanted someone to look at me and see through me. Although it was a scary thought, it has been such a rewarding thing to experience and have.
After my high school sweetheart earth shattering break up, I never thought I would find a love so strong ever again. When I first met my current boyfriend, I didn’t expect my life or our relationship to lead me to where I am now. I’m super thankful to have someone like that in my life, someone that lifts me up and not weigh me down.
We are going to the Cape this weekend and I was trying on bathing suits yesterday and many of you know I’ve been on a weight-loss journey for what seems like forever and have recently started Weight Watchers, so bathing suit shopping is not one of my favorite things to do. Anyways, I sent him pictures of different ones and some I felt great in and others made me feel like I should just wear a poncho and be done with it. However, whether I liked how I looked or not, he supported me and told me how beautiful I was even if the bathing suit didn’t flatter me. Although I wouldn’t have minded him being honest with me, it is nice to know that whether I am 120 pounds or 300, he will love me for me.
I am vowing myself that in this relationship I will be honest and true and never say, “nothing” if he asks me what is wrong. In other relationships I wanted to be in control 100% of the time and it always led me to my downfall and especially the relationship’s downfall. I refuse to sabotage my own happiness, especially one that makes me so happy and fills my heart with so much love and joy.